It feels like you act so different to me, compared to other people. Why's that? I wonder if you're reading this, and if you are, then help yourself with some good/bad news&questions that i need answered.
Can you teach me to be independent? Teach me to be strong, so i can hold my head up high e'ryday? Just like you?
What I have to offer, is never enough. Never is/was, and never will be. Unless you think otherwise, help me to know that.
I never know what to say to you. It's hard, it's complicated. Like e'rything else in this world. I want to have m e m o r i e s with you. But I guess that don't seem possible huh?
Thas why im askin you, to help me to be independent like you. So that when I fall, I can pick myself up and get stronger e'rytime.
You know what I've always wondered or thought about? Is it possible to like someone so bad, that it could physically hurt you? Is it?
Can you have liked a boy when you were nine years old, in fourth grade, and still love the same guy 'till you graduate highschool, then college and so on?
Why do people fall for each other, when they don't even know f'sho that they gonn' last all the way, 'till the end?
I guess thas our mistake at those times.
I'm confused, dazed, 'bout e'rythang.
I don't know who to look to, who to ask for advice, or any of that shit.
Yes, there is God, but it's so hard for me to let him know, since he already knows e'rything, and I have never been patient enough, to find out what the answer is.
I'm so insecure 'bout myself, and with e'rything I do/am. I'm usually a very open person, I tell most people e'rythang, but there are many other things that I keep to myself, that no one knows of, bout me, myself, and I. Thas why it seems as if no ones ever there beside me, to help me out, to get through this undeclared war within myself.
There's always too much going on, that I never really notice at the moment, that I AM the enemy itself.