the game

i ain't playin that game no more, so stop messin wit me.
I A M D O N E .
*&this time, is frsure.
instead of hurting me, you could've just said something.
but i guess you were either too busy/lazy.

lesson 01

"Life is too short to wake up in the morning with regrets, so love the people who treat you right, forget about the ones who don't, and believe that everything happens for a reason. if you get a chance, take it. if it changes your life, let it. nobody said that it'd be easy, they just promised it would be worth it."

scars

if you got scars from the past, and still haven't let em go?
its bout time you should. before things get real hectic.
is not good to keep those scars tangled up in you.

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letter to you

It feels like you act so different to me, compared to other people. Why's that? I wonder if you're reading this, and if you are, then help yourself with some good/bad news&questions that i need answered.
Can you teach me to be independent? Teach me to be strong, so i can hold my head up high e'ryday? Just like you?
What I have to offer, is never enough. Never is/was, and never will be. Unless you think otherwise, help me to know that.
I never know what to say to you. It's hard, it's complicated. Like e'rything else in this world. I want to have m e m o r i e s with you. But I guess that don't seem possible huh?
Thas why im askin you, to help me to be independent like you. So that when I fall, I can pick myself up and get stronger e'rytime.

You know what I've always wondered or thought about? Is it possible to like someone so bad, that it could physically hurt you? Is it?
Can you have liked a boy when you were nine years old, in fourth grade, and still love the same guy 'till you graduate highschool, then college and so on?
Why do people fall for each other, when they don't even know f'sho that they gonn' last all the way, 'till the end?
I guess thas our mistake at those times.
I'm confused, dazed, 'bout e'rythang.
I don't know who to look to, who to ask for advice, or any of that shit.
Yes, there is God, but it's so hard for me to let him know, since he already knows e'rything, and I have never been patient enough, to find out what the answer is.
I'm so insecure 'bout myself, and with e'rything I do/am. I'm usually a very open person, I tell most people e'rythang, but there are many other things that I keep to myself, that no one knows of, bout me, myself, and I. Thas why it seems as if no ones ever there beside me, to help me out, to get through this undeclared war within myself.
There's always too much going on, that I never really notice at the moment, that I AM the enemy itself.

grown apart

dl this.
http://www.sendspace.com/file/2662qz

missing you

Oh I'm missin' you
Baby I'm missin' you
Baby I'm missing you


Things'll never be the same without you...


What did I do to deserve this
I didn't even get one last kiss, from you
Oh baby God took your love from me
He needed an angel so it seems
I need to feel your hands all over me
I need to feel you kissing me
I need to feel you holding me
I need to feel your touch
Cause I miss your love so much
And I can't keep on living this way
I need you here with me
Why could he take you away, from me


It's hard for me to tell you I love you
As I'm standing over your grave
And I know I'll never hear your voice again
Why did you leave me
Why couldn't you just stay
Because my world is nothin', without you
Now I don't know what to do, with myself


I would've given you anything
Just to make you happy
Just to hear you say, that you love me one last time
I'd go to hell and back over and over again
Just to prove to you how much I need you here
There is nothing that I wouldn't do
I'd cry for you
I'd lie for you
And there's no doubt that if I could take your place in heaven
I would die for you, yes I will
I would rather give up my life
Than to see tears in your eyes
I can't stand to see you cry


Cause it's hard for me to tell you I love you
As I'm standing over your grave
And I know I'll never hear your voice again
Why did you leave me
Why couldn't you just stay babe
Because my world is nothin', without you
Now I don't know what to do, with myself


I just don't know what to do with myself
I cant stand looking at those pictures on my shelf
Knowing it was just one week ago, i stood there and took that picture
There just one thing that I wanna know
Why would God want to hurt me so bad,
Does He know how much it hurts to be missing you
Baby Im missing you
Baby Im missing you
I love you


oh God damn it I love you
Why did he take you away from... me
Cause I love you so...
I miss you so much baby, I just can't go on baby.

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that explains it all.